I feel so much better than I did yesterday. I stopped feeling sorry for myself and began rejoicing in life and honoring my Mother by taking my dog to the beach and having a great day. I met my Mother-in-law at a day spa in Sunset Beach and we each got a photofacial and then went across the street and got a drink (we needed it, that laser shit hurts!) at this little joint. We sat outside sipping our drinks and laughing and talking while looking out onto the docked boats. I left and took my dog Trey to Doggy Beach off of Goldenwest and PCH in Huntington Beach. We ran on the sand for a few hours and I actually remembered to bring my iphone. I took a few shots before the sun went down. I left with peace in my heart and happiness and thankfulness for the little things in life.
Archive for August, 2009
8 years today since I pulled the plug
Thursday, August 13th, 2009It has been 8 years today since I had to say goodbye to my Mother. I was her caretaker, I was her best friend, I was her daughter, I was her mother, I was her nurse, her doctor, her best friend, her everything. She was everything to me. She always believed in me no matter what. She always loved me unconditionally. She was my best audience. My biggest fan, and my biggest supporter of doing my site. I found her in a coma on August 6th of 2001. I had to finally let her go after a week of doing numerous tests to make sure she wouldn’t come back to me before I let her go. I put my special bracelette on her wrist, I played her favorite song, Romanza by Andrea Bocelli on my boom box right there in the hospital room and I sat beside her in the hospital bed and held her until she passed. I still miss her intensely. Sometimes I feel abnormally sorrowful. I still want to pick up the phone anytime anything happens in my life to share it with her but the number is gone and so is she. We were so close. I have never really had a best friend. I had my Mom, I have Ryan and I have my sister. I keep to myself most of the time. I love the people that work with me, they are my dear friends and I share most things with them. But I shared everything with my Mom. I feel like I am saying goodbye all over again. Can someone tell me when it stops hurting so bad?
Feeling bitchy, feeling blue…
Wednesday, August 12th, 2009Just one of those days I guess. Even my dog is acting like a spoiled brat. He is laying on the bed crying with this low level suppressed crackled cry because I am typing and not petting him. OH SHIT! He just took up about 100 octaves. I am now medically deaf thanks to Trey. I need to go walk the dogs to end this ceaseless baying and then I am laying down and watching some TV and floating away to place far far away…
I think I’ll watch the last few episodes of “True Blood” that I have missed these last 3 weeks. I really like that show. Quite provocative 🙂
I am weird
Tuesday, August 11th, 2009
Yes, I’m a weirdo. This is a photo from one of the shoots yesterday. This will go up on my site August 25th, the day before my birthday. I decided to do something crazy. I don’t turn 42 every day so I went a little weird and did a bondage/harajuku style shoot with a special birthday surprise.
Hollyweird
Monday, August 10th, 2009I loved going to the Hollywood Bowl on Sunday. We stayed in a little hotel nearby and walked over to the concert that evening, got a bottle of wine and smoked some pot, listened to some reggae music and had a great time. After the concert some lovely Hispanic women were cooking up some hot dogs with peppers and onions and yep, we sure did buy 2 of them! What a great business idea to position yourself right outside a reggae concert so when it is over all those stoners can buy a hot and tasty hot dog. Brilliant!
After sleeping in we drove down Hollywood Boulevard and then came home to shoot. In front of Mann’s Chinese Theater they were setting up for Brad Pitt’s premier of his new movie. Too bad we had to leave to go home and shoot because I would have pulled a total tourist move and stayed in Hollywood to get a glimpse of him. Oh well, I must shoot my porn 🙂
Their guncle is coming over!
Saturday, August 8th, 2009
I got my doggies all excited this morning. I told them that Kip was coming over to visit. They started wagging their tails and hopping around. Not only is Kip coming over but he is bringing along my hairdresser Pauline aka Leon Diaz. Yes, Miss Diaz is the best hairdresser on the planet. She is coming over to put in some extensions so it will be an afternoon of wine, hairstyling and gossip. Can’t wait! Oh yeah, and their guncle (gay uncle) Kip will probably take the doggies for a walk. He’s so good with them 🙂
Sloppy, Slippery and Summer Fun!
Friday, August 7th, 2009I told you guys about the pornfidelity shoot a while ago with Summer Sin. The scene went up today. Check out the trailer, it is really funny. Go to www.pornfidelity.com and see the free trailer and email me what you think at kelly@kellymadison.com
I got all messy with ice cream and chocolate fudge dripping all over our big titties but I forgot to tell you the best part. I got to push Ryan in the pool. I like it when I can get him good. After the messy shoot I washed down the patio, naked of course and I almost slipped on the slippery cement and fell in the pool myself. But alas, I was happy because I blasted Ryan with the hose right in the face. Poor guy.
Groceries and getting spotted.
Thursday, August 6th, 2009I went to the grocery store to load up on power bars, juices, sodas, waters, coffee, crackers, fruit and stuff for the office. I always think that a happy crew depends on how many snacks I keep at the office. While there I did some personal grocery shopping as well as getting props for my next shoot. I can’t wait to tell you what it is. It is for my birthday update since I am turning 42 on August 26th. Yikes! That was a scary thing to admit. I am excited about the birthday shoot though, I just can’t tell you because it is a surprise. But what I can tell you is that I looked like shit today. No make-up, thrashed hair and some cut-off sweats and a tank top, oh yeah, and a big pimple on my forehead. I was walking around in Albertson’s grocery store when a handsome tall gentleman asks my assistant if I was Kelly Madison. I just about died. I nicely scooted my cart away for fear of him seeing me looking so bad. I really need to start spending more time getting ready before I leave the house since I get recognized from time to time. Usually I look so bad that no one would recognize me but alas, today I was spotted.
Better But I Look Dead!
Thursday, August 6th, 2009
This is a photo from my update this week. I look dead! Kelly Madison is DOA from Manzanillo. Just say “No” to ceviche and say yes to cunnilingus! I’m not dead in the video clip, check it out for yourself.
http://www.kellymadison.com/tour/page/1
I am a bit better and I am taking my meds, OK, now I sound psycho but the Cipro is working but I still feel weak. This weekend’s shoot might provide the same “dead” looking photos if I don’t snap out of this. But then again, isn’t that a fetish, fucking dead people?
I flew home and I don’t have the Swine Flu!
Tuesday, August 4th, 2009
I flew home on Saturday night, got in exhausted and travel weary. Went to bed and then got up to go to my hair appointment. I love my hairstylist, she opens the shop just for me 🙂
My hair looks great but my body doesn’t feel great. I took off from work on Monday and rested and then tried to work today with not much luck. I am so tired and weak. I decided to go to see the doctor. I just got back and I have a bladder infection and a fever but nothing is wrong with my kidneys even though they are killing me. I feel like my organs are shutting down. OK, that is a bit dramatic. I should be fine by this weekend. Until then, I am hanging out at home with my doggies and catching up on emails and scheduling a bunch of shoots. I must get healthy to do porn! I guess it could be a lot worse, I could have caught the Swine Flu.
