It has been 8 years today since I had to say goodbye to my Mother. I was her caretaker, I was her best friend, I was her daughter, I was her mother, I was her nurse, her doctor, her best friend, her everything. She was everything to me. She always believed in me no matter what. She always loved me unconditionally. She was my best audience. My biggest fan, and my biggest supporter of doing my site. I found her in a coma on August 6th of 2001. I had to finally let her go after a week of doing numerous tests to make sure she wouldn’t come back to me before I let her go. I put my special bracelette on her wrist, I played her favorite song, Romanza by Andrea Bocelli on my boom box right there in the hospital room and I sat beside her in the hospital bed and held her until she passed. I still miss her intensely. Sometimes I feel abnormally sorrowful. I still want to pick up the phone anytime anything happens in my life to share it with her but the number is gone and so is she. We were so close. I have never really had a best friend. I had my Mom, I have Ryan and I have my sister. I keep to myself most of the time. I love the people that work with me, they are my dear friends and I share most things with them. But I shared everything with my Mom. I feel like I am saying goodbye all over again. Can someone tell me when it stops hurting so bad?

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