Ok, I admit, I don’t like getting older. I’m turning 38 this week and I’m not handling it very well. This isn’t a ploy to try to get you guys to e-mail me to make me feel better 🙂
I’m just letting you in on how I’m feeling. I sort of feel old. Now I usually feel good about being older. Now I am not feeling so good about it. It’s hard when all the girls you usually shoot with are half your age. I got into this sort of business later in life so I really have nothing to compare it to. I started my site when I was already 33. I’ve always been the old lady of the group and I took pride in that. These last 2 weeks I have felt a lot different. I’m sure this will all pass. I still love what I do and I love that I have an audience for it. I should be celebrating and I promise I will. I’m only human and it’s hard to stay happy all the time. I just have to keep in mind that I’m not competing with these young things nor am I trying to be younger than I am. Everyone knows my real age and I like that. I think 38 is a landmark age for me. I don’t know why, it just seems like I had better make the most of it. So this is not only a pity party for me but a resolution to you and myself to quit feeling sad and to embrace life and all that comes with it. Maybe I’m like wine and I only get better with age! OK, that might be spreading it a bit thick but I am going to go in the kitchen and bake myself a cock shaped birthday cake and spread some icing all over my pussy and my tits. That should get me feeling like myself again. I promise to take photos!
